Showing posts with label Intuition. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Intuition. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Accepting the Answer

The concept of ask and you shall receive is one I once followed loosely; I have witnessed its power and believe in it faithfully.  Like most people, I'd pray for something wonderful to happen, hoping it will fit neatly into the list of wants, begging for it to be all roses and bright sunshiny joy.  It is in my experience:  when we demand an answer, or focus so hard on the outcome, we lose sight of what we initially requested and it seems as though our inquiry fell on deaf ears…again.  Life is the greatest teacher; I continue to learn to ‘expect’, trust, and ‘accept’.  I expect a response will be provided clearly and at the right moment.  Trust it will be for my highest good.  I may not always like the answer, but I accept it.

Yesterday I posed an array of questions regarding inspiration on elementsofbeautystudio.wordpress.com (another blog I write).  Basically, how and what tools do you use to stir up the creative juices?   Less than two hours later, while scrolling through a spam email folder, I found a letter from a woman who had purchased my self-published book ‘Get A Compass Not A Clock’ from a local bookstore.  V.G. wrote the following:  “Your writing is captivating and transcended me into a quiet and meditative place.  I bought your book and am thinking I’d like to get a couple of more copies for friends and my 26-year-old daughter.”  

"Many blocked people are actually very powerful and creative personalities who have been made to feel guilty about their strengths & gifts." ~Julia Cameron

The first email I read this morning was from a local publication, it stated:  “Unfortunately, the piece is not for us."  For years I carried the belief that to be considered one of the good local writers I had to fit into this social group of authors.  After reading the rejection letter I heard a heartwarming voice tell me, “This was necessary.” 

In this moment, I sit at my keyboard knowing I am paving the path for others to explore their courage and express themselves authentically.  I am proud of my natural talents and of who I am.  I am grateful.  This lesson helped to remove one more writer’s block and reminded me to trust God will lead me to people who I inspire and encourage - and vice versa.  

To answer the questions, "What inspires me?"  You.

“Your writing is captivating and transcended me into a quiet and meditative place.  I bought your book and am thinking I’d like to get a couple of more copies for friends and my 26-year-old daughter.”  -V.G. 
Thank you...

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Name Change - Key Elements of Life


I am please to announce onegigglingwriter.blogspot is now keyelementsoflife.blogspot.com
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Over the years I have had various nicknames, usually coinciding with my red hair.  I acquired One Giggling Writer, a good description of me, and it functions as a great penname.  The direction, in regards to this blog, has morphed into something I didn’t expect.  Initially the intent was to write about quirky things that happen in the day-to-day events.  Over time I found myself writing about life and the various things I observed, felt, channeled and always from the heart. 

A while back I was reviewing some of the posts on OneGigglingWriter.blogspot.com and realized the name truly was not fitting for the content.   OneGiggling insinuates humor or comedy, and this blog is more about the elements of life.  For about two months I teeter-tottered on whether or not to revise the title to something more appropriate.  I promised myself I wasn’t going to just slap a new name to the blog and say, “Here ya go.  I hope this works better.”

Two mornings ago, as I lay in bed writing in my journal, Key Elements of Life flowed out of the pen and onto the blank page.  One of my bad habits is to put into motion an impulsive idea; so I waited 24 hours before I considering it and did it impulsively anyways. 

There is a voice that doesn’t use words. 
Listen.

~Rumi

Now the joy is locating passwords for web pages I have not been on in a while and updating as many of the links I’d established over the years.  The next task will be to contact my followers, and fellow bloggers and webmasters so they can update their web sites with the current link.  I feel this is a good change, maybe even a new beginning.  Life is an amazing adventure.

Blessings to all,
Cindy



Thursday, May 24, 2012

Shifting Directions

Guiding our desires like a compass, emotions inform us of what feels good and, well, what we’d rather not endure for long periods of time.  We achieve wisdom through personal experience. 

The line “there's no such thing as too much of a good thing” offers a very limited way of thinking and may lead to great boredom.  “Variety is the spice of life” invites more possibilities. 

Perspective is a key element in our expansion.  There will be days when a certain situation encourages one reaction, and on another day the same incident could result in a completely different response.  Remember, there is no right or wrong way, it is what it is, and it is all a matter of discovery.

In recent months, I’ve noticed a shift occurring in our personal beliefs.  Many short and long term relationships, employment, family dynamics, and so forth, are being altered as internal values adjust.  What previously appealed to us no longer brings enjoyment.  The familiar way of thinking, and socially encouraged behaviors we were once taught, no longer resonates with Self.   The desire is intensifying for many to see the fear-based illusions for what they are and explore new realities. 

Yearning for change can, for many, causes a great amount of internal conflict.  A vast majority of self-help books, social media sites, and advice gurus offer the recommendation to just be happy; if you can’t - fake it till it happens.  How can a person be authentic and experience growth if they are forcing themselves to stifle or ignore unwanted feelings?  The buried emotions will come to the surface, so why not deal with them when the moment arises?   It may not be easy…but so worth the effort.  When we deny our emotions, we resist the natural process of healing.  Our heart knows the direction it wishes to travel, just listen.  

Sunday, May 6, 2012

A Set of Footsteps

A few years ago, on my way to the job I’d cry driving to and home from, I begged my Divine Companions for help. “Please show me love. Show me that someone actually cares… I would like to experience love.”  Oh, little did I know what the following two plus years would bring.  Careful what you ask for is a slight understatement.  I am grateful.

A question I’m often asked is, “Why would you stay in a job that causes so much heartbreak.”  The reason is simple – intuition affirmed there was an abundance of lessons to be experienced.  Awareness would be brought forth either there or the next place of employment or the next until I embraced Self.  It was my choice on how I followed through with the Shadow work – gracefully or face-plant in the dirt.  I did both. 

"The most fundamental harm we can do to ourselves is to remain ignorant by not having the courage and the respect to look at ourselves honestly and gently." -Pema Chödrön

I wrote, “I will not fight back not will I argue with you.  I am not weak.  This is my choice.  I am strong.  I see, respect and love the person you are.  And forgive you for your actions.” while three co-workers eagerly attempted to tear ME down with some of the most vicious manipulations.  Weeks, months, a period of time later, I spoke with a dear friend and described how it felt like my tower of Self crashed to the ground in a hopeless pile of rubble; I was broken; wondering how was I going to rebuild?  He smiled, and asked why, since I was provided this opportunity, would I want to use the same bricks and foundation?  Defeated and desiring to curl up in the fetal position, all I could think was, “I don’t wanna start over.”  It took a while to fully grasp his words.


Intuition strengthened.  
Choices made.  
Appreciation of Self evolved. 

“It does not matter what the opinions of the outer world are, but it does matter greatly what is within your feeling.” –Guy W. Ballard

We are experiencing life, perceived only by Self.  Truth is in the eye of the beholder is a profound statement.  The descriptions of love, hate, joy, sadness, wealth, poverty will vary based on emotional interpretations of a person in a particular moment.   Tomorrow the definitions will be altered by an action, event, situation, and so forth.   

"When your mind starts telling you what you have to do to make everything okay, don't buy into what it's telling you. The truth is, everything will be okay as soon as you are okay with everything. And that's the only time everything will be okay." -Michael A. Singer

I am grateful for the hardship of the past couple of years.  For me, it confirmed there is no right, there is no wrong, it just is.  Each of us has an important role and purpose.  It reaffirmed the power of our words – especially when the sentence begins with “I am”.  Everything we seek outside of ourselves is available to us – within our heart.  The fear of loneliness, fear of failure, fear of this, fear of that is imagined… it is only an illusion. 

There are choices.  Do you wish to follow the crowd (and their interpretation of how life is supposed to be)?  Do you independently take each footstep on your journey influenced only by Self’s desire?

Monday, April 16, 2012

Shifting Moments

There are a great number of individuals experiencing a shift in their life. A shift in how they feel. A shift in what they believe. A shift in what thoughts we consider true.

Fear is creating a false sense of isolation and uncertainty as relationships, jobs, life situations are changing. Our intuition continues to console us on this journey, while the ego (reinforced by the things we were taught) would have us believe otherwise. Emotions run high one moment, then drag ass the next.

We are in the process of transforming the beliefs at the core of our being from fear, guilt, darkness, lack into that which truly resonates with Self in its purest form ~ love. There is a peaceful solution; we feel it in our hearts. In the manner in which you are most comfortable (prayer, meditation, and so forth) ask for guidance and for this transformation to be gentle, peaceful and loving. Allow yourself to express all the emotions and resist the temptation to bury and ignore what hurts. Focus and explore various ways to experience Self-love, joy, peace, laughter, pride, and curiosity.

When the moment is right, you’ll decide, “I am content in life.” Soon, without realizing it, you’ll ease into claiming, “I love life.” Please understand this process can take as long as you want it too. The decision is yours. No one can say, “In two week, three days, 6 hours and 42 minutes you will have peace of mind.” It would be nice, but the schedule is based on ones desires in a particular moment. It is a choice.

I personally have found it’s difficult to be in a state of fear when I’m too busy giggling and enjoying the moment. A sense of humor has a tremendous impact in keeping the events of the day light and fun.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Creating Synchronicity

As I sat and listened to a farmer explain how he received the items he needed to build several greenhouses, I was in awe. He simply stated, “Lord, I need ___ so I can ___” and usually within a few weeks the items came to him through various means. For example, a man at an auction thought, “Ya know, I think so-and-so could use these.” He raised his hand and bid $5 on the item to purchase for his friend. After arriving at his friend's farm, he is welcomed with, “Ya know, I was just wondering where I was going to acquire ____.”

Intuition and manifestations intertwine our journey and we create by intention and vision. It's when we notice the synchronicities life appears to be more magical. Our thoughts, our words, are very powerful. Be careful what you wish for, is more than a silly cliche.

“Observe the synchronistic events unfolding around you and marvel in the knowledge that you are consciously creating you life experience.” -Lee Simmons


What manifestations have you noticed lately? Create a list of situations you're aware of and watch how life has changed in (un)expected directions. Our journeys were never meant to be stagnate. Like a river current, our desires and dreams move us to new experiences. It's when we stop the flow, or attempt to manipulate it, we form blocks. The resistance can only build up for so long, until the pressure becomes too much and the flow pushes open the release valve.

Curious to see what you can create? Sit and listen to your heart. If you wish, simply state, “I would like ___ so I can ____” with as many details you can think of and envision possessing it. Be patient. Allow it to come freely without demands or deadlines. Watch for the magic of synchronicity.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Healing Touch

The awareness of healing touch is growing. Once thought of as something only intuitive energy healers (Reiki Masters, Flowing Liquid Light Healing Practitioners and etc.) offered, people are beginning to understand how they too contribute to the energy flow.

Energy emanating from the heart is of the purest love and light. It cannot cause harm to anyone. When the transference comes from the ego, then ultimatums, judgments, conditions and so on interfere with the authenticity of the love and can be harmful. It is the deep-rooted intention that dictates the flow.

We are all intuitive energy healers. The firm hand placed on the shoulder of a friend needing courage provided the person with more strength. The nurturing hug you gave to your child just before bedtime brought comfort and security. And the list goes on...

Think the healing touch concept is hogwash? How did you feel the last time someone who cared held your hand? It was an extension of love. Nothing more, nothing less.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Middle of the Night

Ever wake up in the middle of the night with a profound thought that possessed the ability to move mountains of beliefs or at least shift them enough that sleep becomes next to impossible? This recently happened to a very close friend of mind. At 2:12 am this individual sent me the following text:

"Random thought #437: so if we're in charge of our own destiny and set up choices to decide the future, than why can't we see the outcome of our decisions prior to making them? Or do we choose to be blind as to not spoil the surprise of our actions?" -JK (posted with permission)

Ah, the poetry to me senses! Throughout the day as this task was accomplished and another started, the words on my cell phone were revisited. Somewhere in the middle of the afternoon, my friend wrote, "So what's the answer?"

Is there simple approach to the question? One that defines its concept? Nope. The answer is as individual as you and I. We perceive things differently; and when boiled down to the nitty-gritties in the bottom of the pan, our life experiences are still rather simular. It all traces to one complex four-letter word. We share the desire for basic needs, like food, water, shelter, and companionship. Simplifying the list, the key element to it all is (and what it is that we are here to experience) - love.

"Life is what you make it ~ you're the creator. What emotions, thoughts and perceptions are you using to define this moment?" -Cindy Kochis

We have freewill to create the lives to live. We are the creators. Without conflict we cannot appreciate and truly value the meaning of life. Each person, each being, each aspect of this moment was brought into our experience to bring awareness to Self, Oneness and various elements of Love.

So, if you received a text message from a friend asking, "So if we're in charge of our own destiny and set up choices to decide the future, than why can't we see the outcome of our decisions prior to making them? Or do we choose to be blind as to not spoil the surprise of our actions?" how would you answer the questions? Please share with us your answer.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Message in the Sky


Few thoughts invaded my mind as we rode through the countryside looking at the autumn colors. Nature is beautiful. It doesn't matter why or how the leaves turn to glowing yellows, flaming yellows or deep baritone shades of red. Truly I don't need or even desire an explanation; I revel in the miracle of evolving from one season to another.

Perched on the back of the motorcycle with camera ready to capture the moving scenery, I snapped a picture that took my breath away. A message in the sky. I didn't see the image before I took the photo. There was not a desired outcome or expectation. As soon as the image appeared in the LCD screen, I immediately snapped another picture of the same part of the skyline. The Cherub, male in appearance, looking down on us was gone, however the message was clear.

Our environment provides us with signs continuously. It is our option to pay attention. What is the message you receive when you watch the family of otters play near the riverbanks? How about the deer standing on the edge of the road? When you hear the caw of a crow gliding through the air, what's your first thought?

When something like this happens, trust your intuition to provide its meaning. Be open to the infinite possibilities. The first knowing (thought from the heart) that pops into your head is the message. The more you dwell on whether or not your are right or wrong, the less likely you will understand the intention.

Way, way back when while I was exploring my intuitive skills, a friend would have me interpret dreams. "What do they mean?" she'd ask. "What's your interpretation?" I would write it out, email it back to her and in most cases my version (let's just say) were not textbook. I got frustrated because I never had (and still don't) any interest in getting a dream interpretation book and was flat out told my answers were wrong. It didn't matter what the different symbols meant to me - I wasn't following the guidelines someone else established. Basically, it wasn't to her satisfaction. After some time later, in a completely unrelated conversation the experience was brought up and she informed me on the accuracy of the readings. She was impressed with the personalized insights she would never have gotten from her book.

We tend to discredit what we know (believe) to be true because we listen to the mind. The ego can be ready at a moments notice to dispense doubt like a candy dispenser. Instead of following our hearts, we have become accustom to turning to books and people we consider to be more knowledgeable for justification or approval or their interpretations. The priceless lesson my friend provided me was to trust my intuition and not to rely on another's. In some cases, their insight is based from their personal experience, fears, beliefs, and anything else you'd like to add to the list even though it doesn't pertain to your situation.

If the message is loving, nurturing and supportive, it came from the heart. Fear, doubt, lack, anger, rage and so forth only come from ego (mind) - not the heart. Only unconditional, pure love comes from the heart. Who's messages do you wish to hear?

Monday, October 4, 2010

Interwoven Messages

Fear is a belief. Fear from a past life can affect this life. Fear is part of our shadow work; an aspect of Self to be nurtured and seen for what it really is ~ withdrawal from Love.

In a conversation with a friend, I asked him if it was okay to tell him something he may or may not believe. He was open to what I had to say and listened. I asked him if he knew a woman who has passed on with long, straight black hair and the most beautiful brown eyes (the kind you cannot look away from). She appeared to be Native American Indian or at least part Indian. She came to me (she's visited on several occasions) this time just before I was getting in the bath tub for a soak and requested I share with this man her gratitude and love. He made a difference in her life. [As a side note, there's nothing like standing naked getting ready to put a foot in the warm water when something like this happens. Of course, I giggle at the irony as I write this article - vulnerability.]

At the time of the conversation, he seemed okay with the message. Uncertain of who the woman was, he was still appreciative. As we parted ways, I wondered if it was bothering him on some level. The next day I emailed a quick note just make sure I hadn't upset him. I explained, "It's that vulnerability issue - putting myself out there to 'get noticed' (and burnt at the stake)." The moment those consonances and vowels spread across the page, a flash back of the morning I woke up in absolute terror filled the mind.

The dream what horrifying to say the least. However, it answered the question I'd been asking for years - "What's holding me back?" I woke up knowing who it was that turned me into the council for being a witch in the days when innocent women where being burned at the stake or hung. The person was a loved one, a person I (in that lifetime) trusted with all of my heart and loved to the core of my being. Forgiveness, compassion and love surround the dream and still continues to provide me insight.

Learning to trust in the trust of trusting is not bravery ~ it is embracing love of Self unconditionally. Love is the key element to everything... What belief is holding you back?

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Listening to Emotions

You know how people are searching for peace of mind - a source of joy in their lives? It has been proven that meditation is a technique that helps people transform their lifestyles. It provides an open channel that connects them with Self. Through meditation, you can open your heart to the flow of universal consciousness and, if you choose, live blissfully in the present moment.

There are many reasons people take the time to incorporate the action of meditation into their daily lives, it helps in: improving intuition, relaxation, to rejuvenate energy, reduce stress, connect with personal guides, letting go of fears, forgiveness, open Self to love, inspiration and creativity...just to name a few.

We've all experienced a period when life was uncomfortable and it seems everything is going wrong (remember - there is no right or wrong, only awareness), meditation helped me to dispel some harmful beliefs that were falsely held dear within my heart and thoughts. In relation to feeling the sense of loneliness, feeling everyone else held the keys to the happiness as I stood off in left field, alone and empty handed. My dear friend, we posses the power to change. A belief is only a thought that we replay over and over in our minds until we allow it to become reality.

There is so much power in our words. Worlds are created with the emotions attached to the words. When we become aware of the feelings in that moment, we express the beliefs held dear within and it provides us the opportunity to honestly say, "Hey, is this how I want to feel?" Truly it is our choice.

On the right hand column of the OneGigglingWriter.blogspot.com blog is a section of FREE Worksheets & Stuff. There I have added a free worksheet for anyone to download and explore emotional attachment to a handful of words. It's not necessarily the choice of words we use - verbal or non-verbal - it's the emotional attachment we feel when they are expressed. Awareness can create a defining moment for change.

Take the words I love you. Three simple little words. When you say them to a newborn child, it will sound and feel different than if you were to say it to your parents, to a lover, to a spouse, to a pet... you get the idea. It is the extension of vibrations that impacts the world often times unseen ways. Close your eyes, relax and listen to what your heart has to say.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Power of Empowering


Feelin' a bit feisty, I let thoughts swirl around fears and employment as I washed the dishes this morning. In view is the floral garden I haven't tended to in two weeks. There's also a hiking trail two miles down the road I haven't stepped foot on in over three weeks. I've allowed working to consume my energy and time. As I stood at the kitchen sink looking at the wheelbarrow full of rotting vegetation in the middle of a pathway, a gentle voice quietly asked, “Where's your focus?”

I smiled. I knew. “Yep,” I said aloud, “I'm not setting my energy on the things that matter the most to me. Huh....” Excuses could have spewed from my mouth, if I allowed, but talk about counterproductive. We as a society worry too much about money, jobs, lack of 'something.' When, or why, did we move away from the rhythm of life – nature – being? What happened to the idea of living peacefully in the moment? Listen to friends, family and Self on a Sunday evening and most likely you'll hear the discord of “I hate Mondays, I don't want to go to work tomorrow, I can't wait for next weekend.” Anxiety builds and more fear is set forth along with annoyance, dissatisfaction and plenty of other unpleasant emotions. Why do we insist on suffering? Ha! Here's a thought, how about I go to work to recoup (rest) from life instead of resting because work is exhausting.

For as long as I can remember I have said, “Tell me I do good and I will do better. I want to hear the phrase again and again.” Honestly, I've only encountered a couple of managers/employers that functions in this manner. Instead most stood on their shaky pedestal tossing their self-fabricated power around like they were the keepers of the kingdom, holder of the keys, instilling fear in hopes to maintain the illusion of control. There's this false premise that in order to feel good about Self, a person needs to knock everyone else off the I-feel-confident-in-myself soapbox. Why? How does belittling a person make anyone believe they are more important and stand on a higher rung of the so-called ladder?

There's a joyful life just waiting to be embraced. Life is meant to feel good. It is our own personal interpretation of _______ (work, relationships, money, and etc.) that holds us in the position of powerlessness. Ouch. We mirror, attract, situations based on what we believe while following our intuition – perception. Motivate Self and Others with love, compassion, and empowering words. There is so much satisfaction in feeling the energy vibration rise when intent is focused on encouraging versus dismantling.

We create our own heaven and hell. The challenge to leaving behind fear is to go within and find the Hidden One – the Shadow – and learn from this aspect of Self. The Shadow has so much to teach. Do not resist this awareness. Seek the part of “I” pushed out of the way in hopes of never revealing. Ah, for only a fool would believe it possible. As a wise one shared with me using visuals tools I could then comprehend, he explained energy needs three three things in order for the current to flow – a positive, a negative and a ground. “It is YOU that has defined positive as good, negative as bad and grounding as the wire that keeps it functioning properly. There is no good. There is no bad. There is only awareness.”

Monday, August 9, 2010

Leading the Way


Why do we waste so much time desperately searching for a purpose to our life versus experiencing life. What if it were as simple as to explore joy, happiness, contentment? For most, in order to appreciate what they term a 'blessings' conflict is endured. Can you think of a better way to define desires?

You wanted a job; you got a job. You wish your boss was better at managing the staff; you got another job where the boss is a better manager. You wish you had job where the boss was a better manager and you wanted to be paid more money; you got a different job with a better boss and paid more money. You wanted a job, a boss that’s a great manager, paid more money and now you want more vacation time… Can you see how most of us define our desires? This works with every aspect of life – homes, friendships, lovers, relationships, jobs, cars, vacations, etc.

The key element is not to “want” from the lack of not having, but believing it is possible to obtain. It is possible. There are no limits, except those that you believe.

I heard myself repeat the phrase, “It’s not a race,” to a dear friend of mine who is just becoming aware of their gifts. Right now the person is reading, researching and consuming information faster than I could eat a plate of chocolate chip cookies. It’s as though they feel they have to catch up to the others at the party. Funny thing is that was me years ago. A good friend of mine sat down with me and made the point over and over this is not a race, there is no finish line, take your time in evolving and observe as you become aware of/remember what you already know.

The knowledge is there within each of us. Slow down (especially if you feel life is going too fast, chaotic, out of control) and value the time spent alone. Take time to listen to your inner wisdom. It’s there, I promise you. When you connect to the internal wise one you find no reason to seek your answers outside of Self. I suppose for some it can happen in a matter of a short period of time, and others it could take years. With a desire to open up to your own awareness, you can accomplish anything. Recently, while in meditation, I receive the message "Life is about joy, experiencing contentment, and when you (I) do, the feeling from within will be indescribable. Relax and bless all situations. They are your internal compass."

Friday, August 6, 2010

Soaking in the Words


I was driving down a county road when the cluster of words came to me begging to be put to paper. It doesn’t matter who the phrase is intended for or how they come across the poem. It always comes into light in perfect time.

Self -love, -worth, -appreciation, -gratification may not come easy some days. Years back I found in a book or on the internet to verbalize the statement “I love you” in the mirror. At first I felt a tad bit awkward. Okay, downright silly. I wondered how this was going to help me feel better about the person looking back at me. In a short amount of time it became easier and less (for a lack of a better word) embarrassing. A new sense of pride, appreciation, value percolated and the statement developed strength. There is power in our words, especially the unspoken.

When the world seems less than ideal, I’ve learned it is important to care for the sensitive person inside. Being empathetic is a blessing and at moments not so much. On one hand it makes forgiveness easier because I understand – I feel what the other person is feeling. With this gift of sensitive energy and strong intuition, it took me a long time to realize how easy it is to absorb the ‘not-so-nice information’ internally. Mood swings like a pendulum slamming to the left and then the right without resistance.

“Claiming “I’m fine” with tears flowing internally is a difficult way of life.” –Cindy Kochis


Years ago, I became aware of how other people’s ‘stuff’ affected me. It became very important for me to explore ways to resist the temptation to and prevent myself from soaking up their vibrational energy and take claim to it involuntarily. The ‘ick’ clouds my mood and provides the monkey mind with destructive ammunition. Again, there is great power in unspoken words. The ongoing practice to shield the aura is vital. A few of the techniques I find work the best for me is meditation, journaling, affirmations and an evolving believe in Self.

Yesterday was one of those ouch days at work. My aura was wide open like a barn door and a dry sponge in the heart of it eager for anything. I soaked up the aggression, the insecurity and whatever else was ready to attach to my being. I felt as though I’d been beaten with the metaphorical 2x4 and then toss out into the highway in front of a Mack truck. Splat. It was a long ride home once I completed my shift. After I tossed another tissue into the trash, rolled over, snuggled deep in the safety of my quilts, I recalled what I wrote over a week ago:

“I extend to you
The security of a mother’s hug
The warmth of a lover’s embrace
The joy of child’s curiosity
The peace of calm water
The harmony in a celebrated moment
This is the gift of love I share with you…”