Simon Says, "Relax."

A black feather with a white tip rested on the mowed grass only a step to the left of the trail entrance. The splotch of reflective blue on it is what really caught my eye. This will be a perfect addition to my collection at home, I thought. I placed it in the corner of my handbag and arranged it so it was sticking out to enjoy the journey to the bluffs over Lake Michigan.

On the path of mixed clay and small pebbles, I walked through the woods listening to the whimsical music of birds singing, the breeze ever so slightly whistling through the tall trees and the chatter of squirrels. The mind was silent while the senses embraced nature.

A warm breeze swirled around me as I stepped onto the wooden walkway planks leading to the bluffs. The radiant sun felt good as I left the shelter of the forest. A romanticized image of letting the feather float off into the great beyond vanished as I heard voices in the sitting area at the end of the trail. Smiling, I was greeted by a couple, long-time friends, out enjoying a day of playin' hooky and the scenery. The gal politely asked if I was an artist with work on display at the local art center.

I replied with a simple no. "I'm an artist of words, no a painter. I'm a writer," I said graciously regarding the mistaken identity.

Several stories and plenty of laugher were exchanged between the three of us. When I mentioned I used to write the newsletter for two of the local chamber of commerce offices she knew instantly who I was. "Your name is Cindy," said the stranger.

"Yes, I am." It felt good to be recognized ~ a faint hint of fame.

Soon the couple started the walk back to their vehicle. I soaked up the peace and quiet in solitude. Rolling white caps moved across the deep blue waters below. Fresh air filled my lungs. Life is magical.

An hour prior, I spent time with a friend who listened and allowed me the opportunity to answer my own question regarding the radio show I'd established two weeks ago. There's a reason the first Guided Journeys with Cindy did not record well and why I dealt with one hurdle after another in an effort to send the second week's edition to the producer. And, why my revised business cards (no matter what I did) would not print. It was not meant to be. I'm okay with it. I did something incredible. I moved through fear and accomplished something I thought I never could do - be a radio show host. I suppose you could say I can cross that off my bucket list.

The thing is, I knew early on that it wasn't working and I released the need/desire to continue perusing a dream. There is no regret. It was through the conversation with my friend that I truly understood that this is a time for me to enjoy life, slow down and 'smell the roses.' Not a time to be adding more obligations to my list of to-do's. Why am I finding it difficult to just stop all the busy-body stuff and witness the magic? An involuntary smirk broke the silence - "Simon say, 'relax'."

The spell of the moment faded as voices approached the sitting area. It was time for me to continue my journey back to the truck and go home to take a nap. Without hesitation or a resisted thought, I removed the feather from my purse and allowed the wind to take it from my fingertips. Curious to see how far it'd fly, I turned around to see it landed only a step to the left of the entrance of the sitting area. I giggled at irony.

I have made the decision to postpone/end Guided Journeys with Cindy. I cannot begin to thank Sahvanna at Soul's Journey Radio enough for her support, wisdom and the opportunity she provided me. She is a very talented and visionary woman with an important quest.

Our Divine Purpose in life is love of Self.

Giggling My Way Through Adversity

Ever have a couple of days where nothing seems to be going right? Roadblocks to dodge, small animals running out in front of you, white knuckle grip on the steering wheel... and the brake pedal is missing. That's how the past eight days have felt. I can proudly say that my patience has been tested and I giggled through the whole process. Well, most of it anyhow - I did cry on Thursday.

Life is meant to be fun and not taken so seriously. Personal growth is key. Are you willing to step back, look at the situation while in the moment and ask Self, "What aspect of ME am I being made aware of?"

Ah-ha. Is this a characterization, or better yet, a misunderstanding of the phrase be in the moment. Being in the moment doesn't mean to be nonchalant about the situation, it is about being aware. Does this make sense? The more I attempted to make "it" work my way, the faster the roadblocks were built. I spent all of my morning and afternoon, hence why I'm posting this today and not on Monday, trying to get the recorded show of Guided Journeys with Cindy to the producer. I spent countless hours trying to figure out how to get my voice data recorder to download the show onto the computer. Even though it was obvious Plan A was not working, I still pursued it. Then Plan B pooped up. "Yes!" I hollered and giggled with delight.

Plan B was wonderful, exciting and unexpected. Now I felt really good for having spent the $20-25 on a headset/microphone for a completely different project. A new buzz of energy rose and I spent the next hour and a half recording Guided Journeys with Cindy. A key element needs to be noted is the fact the show is 55 minutes long.

So at this point I'm all happy and giddy driving back into town for the high speed wireless internet at the library only to find out the file is too big to email. This beautiful, wonderful show is too flipping big. Ka-thud. My wild and woolly crazy buzzin' energy screeched to a halt. "What?" I exclaimed from inside my truck, "No!" I tried several ways. Nothing worked. Nervous energy started flowing out of control until I realized what I was allowing to happen and turned the focus on the fact that everything will be okay. I giggled and took the revised approach of maybe this is not how it was meant to be, but everything works out for the best.

Then Plan C hits me like a bolt of lightening. Vroom.... I drove back home like a mad woman. I recorded the beginning and ending of the show thinking the producer could cut out the meditation portion from last week's show and plunk in the middle right where it belongs. "Yes! This will work!" I spend another 30 minutes getting Plan C completed and, vroom, back into town for the high speed internet. The email was sent in a few seconds. A message was left on the producer's voice mail during the drive to work giving her a brief description of the events of the day and of the email sent to her.

Later in the evening, when it was too late to do anything regarding the show, I checked my email only to find out that there was no sound on the file. I laughed at the situation. After spending literally all day working on this project, worrying, hustling, getting frustrated only to find this out, I simply laughed. Sahvanna, the producer, reassured me all was well. In the email she wrote, "No problem Cindy, don't stress. :)" How awesome is that? My guess, she was giggling at the absurdity of the situation as I was. She made the show happen and all is well.

Everything works out. I trust that it will... I have faith.

Into the Light

The sun, only a few hours from setting in the western sky, casted magnificent streamers of light through the maple tree branches above and on both sides of the two-track. The inside of the truck illuminated in an intense hue of yellowish orange. Eyes squinted behind dark blue sunglass lenses, I could barely see where I was going. As I crested the hill and started my descent downward, I giggled to mySelf. Only days ago I felt like the cat in the photo walking past a row of 10-15 German shepherds with the phrase underneath that read, "As I walk through the Valley Of Death, I fear no evil..." Although my version was worded a little differently, it still held the same value. "As I walk through the Valley of Doubt, I fear no failure. I shall succeed by continuing this journey placing one foot in front of the other (even if I have to strangle my ego)."

Courage and Naysayer have become closer friends as September 13th approaches. Listening to the nurturing voice that comes from the internal divine being within versus the ego was much easier this time than in other situations. I spent time with both Courage and Naysaer, and wrapped my arms around Shadow in a loving hug and whispered in her ear, "I love you. I forgive you." I can still feel my breath in my ear.

I have no idea where this path will lead. I am simply trusting. There are daily reminders everywhere in humming neon signs with all sorts of encouraging words to dream big. I continue to ask, "What are the infinite possibilities?" Excitement barely describes the brewing energy percolating from deep within.

You are invited to join me on Monday nights, beginning September 13th, at 9pm EST for Guided Journeys with Cindy on Soul's Journey Radio.

Through our powerful thoughts and imagination a safe and beautiful place is created for healing, insight, clarity and love. Meditations open the lines of communication between mind, body, spirit and divine messengers. Know "the answers" will come in a silent moment - when the mind is still.

In this period of growing awareness, I have tapped into my skills as a Lightworker, intuitive healer and writer to assist those that are ready to align with Self. There is a precious being within all of us eager to share love, wisdom, knowledge and Truth. We can learn so much by taking a moment and allowing the voice of the Heart to communicate.

I would like to take a moment to thank Sahvanna for her kindness, guidance and this opportunity.

Namaste'

Journey on the Woven Web

Coincidence? I think not. Several friends proclaim September is a month of rebirth, renew and time to stop thinking of what you’re gonna do and put the plans into motion. This is no long a period of rest. Awesome. I have the motivation, inspiration and the energy to pursue my dreams.

A popular social networking site has connected me with people I would have otherwise never met. Well, hold on, this string of the webbing starts even before the site was a blip in someone’s creative mind. It began the day I met Denise Iwaniw in Traverse City. Sitting in the audience listening to her adventures and information from her new book “Embracing the Mystic Within” opened a new chapter for me. Guided to go to this gathering, I knew something wonderful would blossom from it.

Wait. Back the bus up. The string on this webbing goes further back to when I worked for Marc at the local radio station WBNZ. I jumped at the opportunity to learn how commercials were produced and how the daily log incorporated into the programming. With the eagerness of a curious five year old, I was all ears. Marc taught me a lot about radio and how well-planned silence can be crucial at the right moment. However, too much dead air on a radio station causes dials to be spontaneously rotated to the left or the right.

Public speaking, with everyone’s attention focused on what I have to say, has been a bit easier to do than I anticipated. I never found comfort in standing up in front of a crowd before I facilitated several open forums last fall. I was the one who sat in the back row snickering at some inside joke that crossed my sassy mind.

Back to Denise, she shared with us that evening the internet link to her radio show on Soul’s Journey Radio. I started listening to her show on Wednesday nights when my schedule allowed. Through Denise I met show host Diana Dorell and several other wonderful women. Naturally this is how I was introduced to Sahvanna, founder of Soul’s Journey Radio, Soul’s Journey Community and the newest addition to her line up – Soul’s Journey TV. When Sahvanna inquired on the networking site if anyone had an idea for a new show on Soul’s Journey Radio I sent her an email. A dream evolving into reality…

“Be the change you wish to see in the world.” –M. Gandhi

It amazes me to witness how the web of life has introduced the people and various experiences into my journey. I am grateful for the opportunity to assist those that are ready to align and listen to the inner knowing with the Higher Self ~ the beautiful being within all of us. It is my privilege to make the following announcement:

Guided Journeys with Cindy
www.soulsjourneyradio.com
Relax and explore your sacred space as you listen to Guided Journeys with Cindy on Monday evenings at 9pm beginning September 13th. It is a safe and beautiful place for healing, insight and to hear messages from the Higher Self ~ the beautiful light being within each of us. Visit this blog often for upcoming show information. Ah...the webs we weave.