Unexpected Christmas Gift

Last Wednesday as we sat facing each other, he cut me off before I could complete my statement, "I'm an easy target for them because I won't fight back. I will not participate in their meanness; there's no reason for it. It's only meant to hurt people in a feeble attempt to feel better about themselves." I sighed, "(They've) cut me down to my core with their wicket words, manipulations and need to continue their nasty dramas. They destroyed my Self-image and now I'm rebuilding..."

"Why would you want to use the same bricks and 2x4's?" he interrupted. "It'll only collapse again. If it didn't work the first time..." he paused for a moment, "You have the opportunity to begin from the ground up. You have changed - evolved - and what once served you, no longer does. Do you really want to rebuild the old you?"

"Nobody is superior, nobody is inferior, but nobody is equal either. People are simply unique, incomparable. You are you, I am I. I have to contribute my potential to life; you have to contribute your potential to life. I have to discover my own being; you have to discover your own being." -Osho

On the night of December 25th, as I lay with my head on the pillow staring into the darkness of nightfall, I heard his voice again - reminding me. "You have the opportunity to begin from the ground up." The heartbreak I endured Christmas morning caused me to notice things about mySelf I was unaware of - habits, taught patterns, learned beliefs of Self.

As the event was occurring, guilt, rage, anger, self-demolishing thoughts filled my mind. For hours after the altercation, I remained in the destructive mode; tearing every shred of my being to smithereens. I'm not worthy.

"Oh my! Did I really think that?"

With that one sentence, I slammed on the brakes to stop the descent into the spiraling out of control vortex that consumed me. An awareness deeply rooted within my soul was forced out of the shadows. I gathered internal strength to build a new foundation - reaffirming the person I truly am. Blessing the situation for the awareness it brought forth, it was released with love and light. IT was let go without strings attached. In the silence of my still mind, I send love and gratitude to all that have shown me their perceptions of me. It is not mine to alter; there is nothing to fix. It is as it is. Everyone has the freewill to develop, maintain and nurture their beliefs of themselves and others. Someday they will see the real me. Until then, I cherish who I am.

I love you. I thank you. All is forgiven. Blessings to all.

Slumbering Emotions

Dreams are just another way for us to explore and release unresolved emotions. Deep within there may lay in waiting hidden secrets of things we've either done or witnessed and, in some cases, feelings that percolate up from a space we had no idea existed.

As the details of the slumbering memories fade as I awaken and merge more into this day, there is still a part of me that is hurting, sad and regretful. It involved family, forgiveness and love.

"If you haven't cried, your eyes can't be beautiful." -Sophia Loren

When you wake from a dream that shakes you at the core, and emotions are very tender, do you do everything you can to forget them or do you put forth the effort to "react"? By that I mean, when you awaken, are you willing to cry and release the residual emotions? Do offer forgiveness to Self and all involved? Do you take a moment to say, "thank you" to the awareness? Can you, or are you willing, to say to Self, "I love you unconditionally"?

Witnessing the Alignment

The key is Awareness.

The answer is Love.

And life is meant to be full of Giggles.

It never seizes to amaze me when pondering thoughts fill my mind as I awaken from slumber. Life is continuously evolving. Mind-sets shift; old beliefs fall off to the side when new one materialize; and then, then you finally understand the messages you've been given over and over and over...

The intent is Compassion.

The focus is on Blissful Joy.

And life is meant to be full of Precious Moments.

Situations present themselves in our day-to-day lives for us to notice. When ignored, they become louder and larger until the words, "Oh, now I get it," are vocalized in one way or another.

The action is Trust.

The integrity is Divine.

And life is an Alignment with Oneness.

Way of Thinking

The conversation took a turn that I truly wasn't expecting. Walking back into the room, my friend says to me, "Don't take this the wrong way, but..."

Unfamiliar with Abraham-Hicks, I played several clips posted on the internet for her to hear. In my excitement of introducing another person to the concept of seeing how our thoughts affect our perceptions, manifestations - our lives - I was shocked to hear her compare Ester Hicks with a dangerous cult leader. The charisma, the repeating of certain words, ability to get people to listen and follow instruction; it was not for her.

Right now there are millions of us artisans, in one way or another, aspiring to encourage others to explore Self-empowerment. Each one has a message, a reminder and on occasion something that sparks a new way of 'being'. Inspiration to create a desired life is one of the most powerful gifts a person can give from the heart.

There are many artisans that'll never know, understand, witness the impact of their work. And that's perfectly fine. Sure, to have the ego stroked and told how wonderful our works of art are offer more encouragement; it's not the real reason behind the passion.

If you think about it, why do we do certain things that make us feel good? Okay, silly question. But is it? Those with the set intention of highest good for all, with harm to none including the Self-help gurus, channellers of non-physical beings, friends, family, and even co-workers all share generically the same message: Love Self.

Personally I would rather learn more about the teachings to look in the mirror and say, "I love you" instead of "Damn you're fat and ugly." I'm all for having the awareness of how positive thinking can, and will, affect what we manifest. Abraham-Hicks' message is clear, "Ask And It Is Given."

Evolving Into Peace

Words laced with poisonous venom fill the minds of many as the ballots have been tallied and the election results published. Like a vicious cycle of a dog chasing its tail, it doesn’t matter who wins or loses, few will accept the outcome and the perception of government will remain the same.

A belief is a belief that you keep thinking. Plain and simple. If you continue to believe that government is corrupt and has filled with lying bastards who are only lining their pockets with special interest money; guess what, that’s what you’ll get. It is the Law of Manifestation.

For your own personal sake, turn the angry thoughts to compassion, forgiveness and support. Yes. Let go of the fear or knowing that they will ‘screw it up’ for what you seek will be found. Start by acknowledging the elected official has a job that few are willing to pursue. Support their courage. Forgive them for (what you believe to be) previous bad judgments. We are human and will make mistakes; it’s how we learn. Compassion to give them the understanding in knowing they have their lessons to experience.

Let go of the fear (evolving from the election). Convert it to compassion and forgiveness. Support the individuals (everyone involved) in a loving manner. This is a pivotal point in how we perceive elected officials and our emotions/vibrations will impact our future.

A belief is a belief we keep believing. Fear can evolve into Peace...if you allow it.

Tap Dancing Fingertips

When's the last time you wrote an email to a co-worker, lover, mother and the information was misinterpreted and feelings were hurt? Or worse, you never find out.

The more technology advances, the less we communicate with each other. Something is missing. We send emails, text messages to cell phones in the middle of the night, instant message via the internet, post a quick note on a friend's social media page; but to me that's only providing a non-emotional exchange of information. And I suppose, some would believe it's easier to deliver news without having to witness the other person's reaction.

How did we evolve into being so unattached that we cannot find the time to talk to a friend face to face? When we communicate it's our vibration - the energy - defining our meanings, our feelings, our intent, our Truth. By putting up the artificial barrier, the emotions are blocked from delivering the message originally set forth. Oh sure, there are the cute little smiley faces and symbols, and bold words typed in red ending with an exclamation mark used to convey purpose. It's not the same.

It's become too convenient to tap on the computer keyboard and send a quick note, saying, "Hi, how are you?" instead of dialing their phone number and speaking to the friend. A quick note that reads "I miss you" will not have the same impact as seeing the individual and telling them in person. All the intended receiver of the message sees is the end result of your finger tap dancing on the keyboard leaving the tone of voice silent and worse yet, the emotions unfelt - unheard. No matter the advancement in technology, it cannot interpret vibrations.

NaNoWriMo

Attempting to eliminate the ways in which I'm distracted with the intend to spend more quality time focusing on tasks I wish to accomplish, I've seem to have increased my number of social media group enrollments. What? Say it isn't so!

Alas, it is true. One friend and family group, one spiritual based, third one on the list is for writers and the most recent is for NaNoWriMo. National Novel Writing Month, created by Amazon.com, I must say intrigues me. The idea is to write 50,000 words in a month with a goal to have the rough draft of a (or near) completed novel to edit. Broken down, that means 1,667 words written each day. During the month of November, I will have a NaNoWriMo word count widget included on the right column so we can keep track of the progress together.

They say a habit needs six weeks to be broken, how many did they say to establish one? As you've seen in previous posts, I write, I pause, I take a long break, then work on one of my novels again. I suppose there's nothing wrong with my yo-yo attention span with novel writing (mainly because there is no right or wrong - it is what it is). It'll be interesting to see what is accomplished at the end of the 30 days. My goal is to be faithful to my passion for writing. When I pick it up from the long pauses, I always ask myself, "Why did you stop in the first place? This feel so good!"

Shifting Gears

Focus is shifting from the sense that we have to get it all done to how can I relax? Realizing that being overworked, bombarded with deadlines, a to-do list without an ending is no longer a desired way of life; we seek serenity.

Meditation can be used to release the beliefs that no longer fulfill our journey, silence the continuous chatter of the monkey mind, balance energies, access internal wisdom, grounding and align with Self. Like exercise, we know meditation will help us to feel better, be healthier and so forth. Even though the intent is there, it's still resisted. Clocks are watched; and for the Go-Getter's on a constant run, the idea of stopping their busy life for 30-minutes (forget an hour) of meditation is put off for another day. Belief that there isn't enough time delays the action because how could it possibly be productive to stop the forward motion?

On the other side of the pendulum, there are those who try so hard they exert themselves to exhaustion to create a sense of relaxation that when achieved, it's not relaxing at all. Go, go, go, stop. Go, go, go, screeching brakes. This way of life can cause metaphoric whiplash. Ease into the new routine. Do it in baby steps if need be. As a friend told me years ago, "Take your time. This isn't a race. It takes practice. What happens when you slam on the brakes too hard? You smash your forehead on the steering wheel; and who needs the headache?"

Done in niblets, meditation does not require a person to sit in an uncomfortable position with index fingertips pressed against the tips of the thumb forming circular symbols to experience inner peace. Inconspicuous ways people meditate without realizing they are doing it may include:

• Taking a long walk through the woods
• Focusing on and repeating an affirmation
• Sitting in a boat waiting for a fish to bite
• Soaking in a warm bath watching the flame of a candle flicker
• Listening to a favorite song that teleports the senses to a peaceful momory
• Stepping outside from a long day at work and taking in a deep breath of fresh air
• Watching the sun set
• Staring out the kitchen window while washing a sink full of dirty dishes
• Loosing track of time while working on a hobby

Truly there is no right or wrong way to experience serenity; what matters is the intent. It is when focus shifts to developing a healthy relationship between physical and divine Self that true love of Self blossoms naturally.

Please share the ways in which you take time for yourself.

Middle of the Night

Ever wake up in the middle of the night with a profound thought that possessed the ability to move mountains of beliefs or at least shift them enough that sleep becomes next to impossible? This recently happened to a very close friend of mind. At 2:12 am this individual sent me the following text:

"Random thought #437: so if we're in charge of our own destiny and set up choices to decide the future, than why can't we see the outcome of our decisions prior to making them? Or do we choose to be blind as to not spoil the surprise of our actions?" -JK (posted with permission)

Ah, the poetry to me senses! Throughout the day as this task was accomplished and another started, the words on my cell phone were revisited. Somewhere in the middle of the afternoon, my friend wrote, "So what's the answer?"

Is there simple approach to the question? One that defines its concept? Nope. The answer is as individual as you and I. We perceive things differently; and when boiled down to the nitty-gritties in the bottom of the pan, our life experiences are still rather simular. It all traces to one complex four-letter word. We share the desire for basic needs, like food, water, shelter, and companionship. Simplifying the list, the key element to it all is (and what it is that we are here to experience) - love.

"Life is what you make it ~ you're the creator. What emotions, thoughts and perceptions are you using to define this moment?" -Cindy Kochis

We have freewill to create the lives to live. We are the creators. Without conflict we cannot appreciate and truly value the meaning of life. Each person, each being, each aspect of this moment was brought into our experience to bring awareness to Self, Oneness and various elements of Love.

So, if you received a text message from a friend asking, "So if we're in charge of our own destiny and set up choices to decide the future, than why can't we see the outcome of our decisions prior to making them? Or do we choose to be blind as to not spoil the surprise of our actions?" how would you answer the questions? Please share with us your answer.

Message in the Sky

Few thoughts invaded my mind as we rode through the countryside looking at the autumn colors. Nature is beautiful. It doesn't matter why or how the leaves turn to glowing yellows, flaming yellows or deep baritone shades of red. Truly I don't need or even desire an explanation; I revel in the miracle of evolving from one season to another.

Perched on the back of the motorcycle with camera ready to capture the moving scenery, I snapped a picture that took my breath away. A message in the sky. I didn't see the image before I took the photo. There was not a desired outcome or expectation. As soon as the image appeared in the LCD screen, I immediately snapped another picture of the same part of the skyline. The Cherub, male in appearance, looking down on us was gone, however the message was clear.

Our environment provides us with signs continuously. It is our option to pay attention. What is the message you receive when you watch the family of otters play near the riverbanks? How about the deer standing on the edge of the road? When you hear the caw of a crow gliding through the air, what's your first thought?

When something like this happens, trust your intuition to provide its meaning. Be open to the infinite possibilities. The first knowing (thought from the heart) that pops into your head is the message. The more you dwell on whether or not your are right or wrong, the less likely you will understand the intention.

Way, way back when while I was exploring my intuitive skills, a friend would have me interpret dreams. "What do they mean?" she'd ask. "What's your interpretation?" I would write it out, email it back to her and in most cases my version (let's just say) were not textbook. I got frustrated because I never had (and still don't) any interest in getting a dream interpretation book and was flat out told my answers were wrong. It didn't matter what the different symbols meant to me - I wasn't following the guidelines someone else established. Basically, it wasn't to her satisfaction. After some time later, in a completely unrelated conversation the experience was brought up and she informed me on the accuracy of the readings. She was impressed with the personalized insights she would never have gotten from her book.

We tend to discredit what we know (believe) to be true because we listen to the mind. The ego can be ready at a moments notice to dispense doubt like a candy dispenser. Instead of following our hearts, we have become accustom to turning to books and people we consider to be more knowledgeable for justification or approval or their interpretations. The priceless lesson my friend provided me was to trust my intuition and not to rely on another's. In some cases, their insight is based from their personal experience, fears, beliefs, and anything else you'd like to add to the list even though it doesn't pertain to your situation.

If the message is loving, nurturing and supportive, it came from the heart. Fear, doubt, lack, anger, rage and so forth only come from ego (mind) - not the heart. Only unconditional, pure love comes from the heart. Who's messages do you wish to hear?

Interwoven Messages

Fear is a belief. Fear from a past life can affect this life. Fear is part of our shadow work; an aspect of Self to be nurtured and seen for what it really is ~ withdrawal from Love.

In a conversation with a friend, I asked him if it was okay to tell him something he may or may not believe. He was open to what I had to say and listened. I asked him if he knew a woman who has passed on with long, straight black hair and the most beautiful brown eyes (the kind you cannot look away from). She appeared to be Native American Indian or at least part Indian. She came to me (she's visited on several occasions) this time just before I was getting in the bath tub for a soak and requested I share with this man her gratitude and love. He made a difference in her life. [As a side note, there's nothing like standing naked getting ready to put a foot in the warm water when something like this happens. Of course, I giggle at the irony as I write this article - vulnerability.]

At the time of the conversation, he seemed okay with the message. Uncertain of who the woman was, he was still appreciative. As we parted ways, I wondered if it was bothering him on some level. The next day I emailed a quick note just make sure I hadn't upset him. I explained, "It's that vulnerability issue - putting myself out there to 'get noticed' (and burnt at the stake)." The moment those consonances and vowels spread across the page, a flash back of the morning I woke up in absolute terror filled the mind.

The dream what horrifying to say the least. However, it answered the question I'd been asking for years - "What's holding me back?" I woke up knowing who it was that turned me into the council for being a witch in the days when innocent women where being burned at the stake or hung. The person was a loved one, a person I (in that lifetime) trusted with all of my heart and loved to the core of my being. Forgiveness, compassion and love surround the dream and still continues to provide me insight.

Learning to trust in the trust of trusting is not bravery ~ it is embracing love of Self unconditionally. Love is the key element to everything... What belief is holding you back?

Perception as Reality

Life's been a bit too serious lately. A new project started, another obligation scheduled and playtime extinguished. Simplifying is a new priority. Not everyone agrees or understands and that's okay. The desire to impulsively splash both feet into a mud puddle outweighs their voiced opinions on how they believe I should spend my time.

In each of us is an innate being, a beautiful ray of light, waiting to help us let go of old habits, destructive behaviors and unhealthy beliefs. Truly, it is a mind game. The more we become aware of the drama of feeling sorry for ourselves (for example), change begins. How would life be interpreted if no one complained about money, relationships, jobs and etc.? Think of the peace we'd experience.

"Allow all the emotions to pass through ~ feel freedom by letting them go… Don’t hold on to them (positive or negative emotions) for then blockages begin to form." -Cindy Kochis

Affirmations and adjusting our words to sound more positive are great as long as we are not attempting to cover up (hide) the underlying issues. Convincing Self with positive, choreographed words is not enough, the truth is in the vibrations of the emotions felt. I can tell you how wonderful life is while feeling completely miserable on the inside. I hid my reality from you for one reason or another. The real work is on the inside where thoughts twist and turn, morph and mesh, and create perception.

What are the labels you place on your forehead when you look in the mirror? Actually, do you even take the time to acknowledge the person in the mirror? Are you so rushed in the bathroom while you're getting ready for another day? Often times we neglect to see past the image of the person looking back. Spend time with that individual. Start the conversation by saying, "Good morning, Sweetie. Let's go have some fun."

Listening to Emotions

You know how people are searching for peace of mind - a source of joy in their lives? It has been proven that meditation is a technique that helps people transform their lifestyles. It provides an open channel that connects them with Self. Through meditation, you can open your heart to the flow of universal consciousness and, if you choose, live blissfully in the present moment.

There are many reasons people take the time to incorporate the action of meditation into their daily lives, it helps in: improving intuition, relaxation, to rejuvenate energy, reduce stress, connect with personal guides, letting go of fears, forgiveness, open Self to love, inspiration and creativity...just to name a few.

We've all experienced a period when life was uncomfortable and it seems everything is going wrong (remember - there is no right or wrong, only awareness), meditation helped me to dispel some harmful beliefs that were falsely held dear within my heart and thoughts. In relation to feeling the sense of loneliness, feeling everyone else held the keys to the happiness as I stood off in left field, alone and empty handed. My dear friend, we posses the power to change. A belief is only a thought that we replay over and over in our minds until we allow it to become reality.

There is so much power in our words. Worlds are created with the emotions attached to the words. When we become aware of the feelings in that moment, we express the beliefs held dear within and it provides us the opportunity to honestly say, "Hey, is this how I want to feel?" Truly it is our choice.

On the right hand column of the OneGigglingWriter.blogspot.com blog is a section of FREE Worksheets & Stuff. There I have added a free worksheet for anyone to download and explore emotional attachment to a handful of words. It's not necessarily the choice of words we use - verbal or non-verbal - it's the emotional attachment we feel when they are expressed. Awareness can create a defining moment for change.

Take the words I love you. Three simple little words. When you say them to a newborn child, it will sound and feel different than if you were to say it to your parents, to a lover, to a spouse, to a pet... you get the idea. It is the extension of vibrations that impacts the world often times unseen ways. Close your eyes, relax and listen to what your heart has to say.

Simon Says, "Relax."

A black feather with a white tip rested on the mowed grass only a step to the left of the trail entrance. The splotch of reflective blue on it is what really caught my eye. This will be a perfect addition to my collection at home, I thought. I placed it in the corner of my handbag and arranged it so it was sticking out to enjoy the journey to the bluffs over Lake Michigan.

On the path of mixed clay and small pebbles, I walked through the woods listening to the whimsical music of birds singing, the breeze ever so slightly whistling through the tall trees and the chatter of squirrels. The mind was silent while the senses embraced nature.

A warm breeze swirled around me as I stepped onto the wooden walkway planks leading to the bluffs. The radiant sun felt good as I left the shelter of the forest. A romanticized image of letting the feather float off into the great beyond vanished as I heard voices in the sitting area at the end of the trail. Smiling, I was greeted by a couple, long-time friends, out enjoying a day of playin' hooky and the scenery. The gal politely asked if I was an artist with work on display at the local art center.

I replied with a simple no. "I'm an artist of words, no a painter. I'm a writer," I said graciously regarding the mistaken identity.

Several stories and plenty of laugher were exchanged between the three of us. When I mentioned I used to write the newsletter for two of the local chamber of commerce offices she knew instantly who I was. "Your name is Cindy," said the stranger.

"Yes, I am." It felt good to be recognized ~ a faint hint of fame.

Soon the couple started the walk back to their vehicle. I soaked up the peace and quiet in solitude. Rolling white caps moved across the deep blue waters below. Fresh air filled my lungs. Life is magical.

An hour prior, I spent time with a friend who listened and allowed me the opportunity to answer my own question regarding the radio show I'd established two weeks ago. There's a reason the first Guided Journeys with Cindy did not record well and why I dealt with one hurdle after another in an effort to send the second week's edition to the producer. And, why my revised business cards (no matter what I did) would not print. It was not meant to be. I'm okay with it. I did something incredible. I moved through fear and accomplished something I thought I never could do - be a radio show host. I suppose you could say I can cross that off my bucket list.

The thing is, I knew early on that it wasn't working and I released the need/desire to continue perusing a dream. There is no regret. It was through the conversation with my friend that I truly understood that this is a time for me to enjoy life, slow down and 'smell the roses.' Not a time to be adding more obligations to my list of to-do's. Why am I finding it difficult to just stop all the busy-body stuff and witness the magic? An involuntary smirk broke the silence - "Simon say, 'relax'."

The spell of the moment faded as voices approached the sitting area. It was time for me to continue my journey back to the truck and go home to take a nap. Without hesitation or a resisted thought, I removed the feather from my purse and allowed the wind to take it from my fingertips. Curious to see how far it'd fly, I turned around to see it landed only a step to the left of the entrance of the sitting area. I giggled at irony.

I have made the decision to postpone/end Guided Journeys with Cindy. I cannot begin to thank Sahvanna at Soul's Journey Radio enough for her support, wisdom and the opportunity she provided me. She is a very talented and visionary woman with an important quest.

Our Divine Purpose in life is love of Self.

Giggling My Way Through Adversity

Ever have a couple of days where nothing seems to be going right? Roadblocks to dodge, small animals running out in front of you, white knuckle grip on the steering wheel... and the brake pedal is missing. That's how the past eight days have felt. I can proudly say that my patience has been tested and I giggled through the whole process. Well, most of it anyhow - I did cry on Thursday.

Life is meant to be fun and not taken so seriously. Personal growth is key. Are you willing to step back, look at the situation while in the moment and ask Self, "What aspect of ME am I being made aware of?"

Ah-ha. Is this a characterization, or better yet, a misunderstanding of the phrase be in the moment. Being in the moment doesn't mean to be nonchalant about the situation, it is about being aware. Does this make sense? The more I attempted to make "it" work my way, the faster the roadblocks were built. I spent all of my morning and afternoon, hence why I'm posting this today and not on Monday, trying to get the recorded show of Guided Journeys with Cindy to the producer. I spent countless hours trying to figure out how to get my voice data recorder to download the show onto the computer. Even though it was obvious Plan A was not working, I still pursued it. Then Plan B pooped up. "Yes!" I hollered and giggled with delight.

Plan B was wonderful, exciting and unexpected. Now I felt really good for having spent the $20-25 on a headset/microphone for a completely different project. A new buzz of energy rose and I spent the next hour and a half recording Guided Journeys with Cindy. A key element needs to be noted is the fact the show is 55 minutes long.

So at this point I'm all happy and giddy driving back into town for the high speed wireless internet at the library only to find out the file is too big to email. This beautiful, wonderful show is too flipping big. Ka-thud. My wild and woolly crazy buzzin' energy screeched to a halt. "What?" I exclaimed from inside my truck, "No!" I tried several ways. Nothing worked. Nervous energy started flowing out of control until I realized what I was allowing to happen and turned the focus on the fact that everything will be okay. I giggled and took the revised approach of maybe this is not how it was meant to be, but everything works out for the best.

Then Plan C hits me like a bolt of lightening. Vroom.... I drove back home like a mad woman. I recorded the beginning and ending of the show thinking the producer could cut out the meditation portion from last week's show and plunk in the middle right where it belongs. "Yes! This will work!" I spend another 30 minutes getting Plan C completed and, vroom, back into town for the high speed internet. The email was sent in a few seconds. A message was left on the producer's voice mail during the drive to work giving her a brief description of the events of the day and of the email sent to her.

Later in the evening, when it was too late to do anything regarding the show, I checked my email only to find out that there was no sound on the file. I laughed at the situation. After spending literally all day working on this project, worrying, hustling, getting frustrated only to find this out, I simply laughed. Sahvanna, the producer, reassured me all was well. In the email she wrote, "No problem Cindy, don't stress. :)" How awesome is that? My guess, she was giggling at the absurdity of the situation as I was. She made the show happen and all is well.

Everything works out. I trust that it will... I have faith.

Dirty Toes

Today's blog entry started off in the usual sense with a few words of wisdom formulating in my mind, however I cannot stop thinking of what a friend said on the phone yesterday. The conversation began like any other and quickly converted to one I wasn't expecting. Descending from happy thoughts into ongoing issues where fear is used as a motivator, not praise nor a sense of community.

She pointed out gently how we've spent a considerable amount of time opening and having fun learning how to use our upper chakras and adjusting to the new energies. "It's time to work on the lower ones - mainly the root chakra." The upper chakras represent communication and the ability to hear/see/speak with the divine. It's time to do something with the knowledge and move into the areas of resistance and continue the healing process.

The root chakra is the grounding chakra in respect to a person's connection with Mother Earth. It is also a power source. The key element is survival. There are many of us that are feeling the discord of this region: security, money, relationships, self-worth, trust, a sense of feeling grounded. What I found interesting on the internet was how many shared the same suggested therapy for balancing the first chakra - "Walk barefoot in nature," "Hug a tree," and "Dance." Basically any physical movement that makes you more aware of your body will strengthen this powerful chakra.

And, sad to say but worth mentioning, in my quest for information I came across a site that talked about the root chakra being sexual and if you craved sex or had no desire for it, then "stop reading here" because there's no help for you. Huh? Are they serious? There's always a solutions. Pay no attention to those who use fear to guide you. There is always hope.

So, can it be this simple? Dance barefoot in nature. Why not? Opening the heart charka is easily done with Love.

Thoughtful Choices

'Careful of your thoughts' is an understatement for they possess more power than we acknowledge. Thoughts create perceptions and formulate beliefs to be held as current Truth. This is not a new concept, just one that should receive more attention.

The things our minds dwell on (work, relationships, money, status) puts focus on our intent - the experiences we wish to attract into our lives. If thoughts are centered on how horrible Monday is going to be at work, the person seeks out to notice all the challenges of the day to confirm the desire (belief) without recognizing any joy. It is, afterall, what Self is expecting. And when the day goes better than expected, that person will believe it was only a fluke and that won't happen again. Well, maybe on Friday. Here's something to ponder, people are typically fired or let go from their jobs on Fridays - not on a Monday.

Let's chat about relationships, shall we? This is a very sensitive subject to most. The number one question a psychic is asked is in regards to relationships. "Will I ever meet my soul mate?" "Does he love me?" "Is she the one?" "Will this relationship last forever?" "Will we get married?" If you think about it, the person asking has already set doubt into motion - perception established. If the questioner were to sit quietly in the energy of the relationship and listen to the heart, the answer is already there because you are creating it. The ego, on the other hand, may certainly have a completely different answer. "I'm not worthy of his love." "She'll take care of all my needs." "Can't wait to see So-and-so's reaction when I bring him to the party."

Your choice in music, movies and television shows can also alter your manifestations. Listen to the influential words when you sing along with the radio. Are you singing about love gone bad or of the power of love? Is the television show jam backed with violence and deception or about a supportive friends? Our emotions guide our perceptions, in turn establishing our desires. How do you feel when listening to a favorite song? Seriously. Does it help you to heal from a heartbreak or stir up emotions of lack, doubt, failure? Compassion or rage... Our words, verbal and internal, hold more power then our awakening minds can comprehend.

Ask youSelf, "What would happen if I changed my perception?" Look at any situation in your life. We get so wrapped up in our emotions that sometimes we miss the miracles of the moment. Yes, the Miracles of the Moment. There are reasons (lessons) we experience what we currently consider less than desirable events. They serve as a compass to direct our course and, in some cases, force a necessary change in our awareness. Be open and available to new possibilites, new understandings and allow the wall of self-righteousness to crumble to the wayside. Be curious as a young child and know there is no right or wrong decisions - only awareness.

"Sometimes, by taking a moment to return to where you are right now, you will be able to see the moment with greater clarity and insight and the next step on your ongoing journey will be clearer as well." - Brian & Wendy Froud from "The Heart of Faerie Oracle"

Into the Light

The sun, only a few hours from setting in the western sky, casted magnificent streamers of light through the maple tree branches above and on both sides of the two-track. The inside of the truck illuminated in an intense hue of yellowish orange. Eyes squinted behind dark blue sunglass lenses, I could barely see where I was going. As I crested the hill and started my descent downward, I giggled to mySelf. Only days ago I felt like the cat in the photo walking past a row of 10-15 German shepherds with the phrase underneath that read, "As I walk through the Valley Of Death, I fear no evil..." Although my version was worded a little differently, it still held the same value. "As I walk through the Valley of Doubt, I fear no failure. I shall succeed by continuing this journey placing one foot in front of the other (even if I have to strangle my ego)."

Courage and Naysayer have become closer friends as September 13th approaches. Listening to the nurturing voice that comes from the internal divine being within versus the ego was much easier this time than in other situations. I spent time with both Courage and Naysaer, and wrapped my arms around Shadow in a loving hug and whispered in her ear, "I love you. I forgive you." I can still feel my breath in my ear.

I have no idea where this path will lead. I am simply trusting. There are daily reminders everywhere in humming neon signs with all sorts of encouraging words to dream big. I continue to ask, "What are the infinite possibilities?" Excitement barely describes the brewing energy percolating from deep within.

You are invited to join me on Monday nights, beginning September 13th, at 9pm EST for Guided Journeys with Cindy on Soul's Journey Radio.

Through our powerful thoughts and imagination a safe and beautiful place is created for healing, insight, clarity and love. Meditations open the lines of communication between mind, body, spirit and divine messengers. Know "the answers" will come in a silent moment - when the mind is still.

In this period of growing awareness, I have tapped into my skills as a Lightworker, intuitive healer and writer to assist those that are ready to align with Self. There is a precious being within all of us eager to share love, wisdom, knowledge and Truth. We can learn so much by taking a moment and allowing the voice of the Heart to communicate.

I would like to take a moment to thank Sahvanna for her kindness, guidance and this opportunity.

Namaste'

Journey on the Woven Web

Coincidence? I think not. Several friends proclaim September is a month of rebirth, renew and time to stop thinking of what you’re gonna do and put the plans into motion. This is no long a period of rest. Awesome. I have the motivation, inspiration and the energy to pursue my dreams.

A popular social networking site has connected me with people I would have otherwise never met. Well, hold on, this string of the webbing starts even before the site was a blip in someone’s creative mind. It began the day I met Denise Iwaniw in Traverse City. Sitting in the audience listening to her adventures and information from her new book “Embracing the Mystic Within” opened a new chapter for me. Guided to go to this gathering, I knew something wonderful would blossom from it.

Wait. Back the bus up. The string on this webbing goes further back to when I worked for Marc at the local radio station WBNZ. I jumped at the opportunity to learn how commercials were produced and how the daily log incorporated into the programming. With the eagerness of a curious five year old, I was all ears. Marc taught me a lot about radio and how well-planned silence can be crucial at the right moment. However, too much dead air on a radio station causes dials to be spontaneously rotated to the left or the right.

Public speaking, with everyone’s attention focused on what I have to say, has been a bit easier to do than I anticipated. I never found comfort in standing up in front of a crowd before I facilitated several open forums last fall. I was the one who sat in the back row snickering at some inside joke that crossed my sassy mind.

Back to Denise, she shared with us that evening the internet link to her radio show on Soul’s Journey Radio. I started listening to her show on Wednesday nights when my schedule allowed. Through Denise I met show host Diana Dorell and several other wonderful women. Naturally this is how I was introduced to Sahvanna, founder of Soul’s Journey Radio, Soul’s Journey Community and the newest addition to her line up – Soul’s Journey TV. When Sahvanna inquired on the networking site if anyone had an idea for a new show on Soul’s Journey Radio I sent her an email. A dream evolving into reality…

“Be the change you wish to see in the world.” –M. Gandhi

It amazes me to witness how the web of life has introduced the people and various experiences into my journey. I am grateful for the opportunity to assist those that are ready to align and listen to the inner knowing with the Higher Self ~ the beautiful being within all of us. It is my privilege to make the following announcement:

Guided Journeys with Cindy
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Relax and explore your sacred space as you listen to Guided Journeys with Cindy on Monday evenings at 9pm beginning September 13th. It is a safe and beautiful place for healing, insight and to hear messages from the Higher Self ~ the beautiful light being within each of us. Visit this blog often for upcoming show information. Ah...the webs we weave.

Loving the Naysayer

Forging past fear appears easy on the big screen as we encourage the hero from the safety of a cushioned theater chair. It can be another thing to stand up in the face of our own fears to move past self-imposed challenges. Fight or flight. Stand up sit down. Do it yourSelf or pray that someone else will come along to handle the situation. An old way of thinking is to have everyone else decide how to find the looming solution or seek out someone willing to stroke the ego enough to boost the internal courage hidden behind the spinal cord to come forth.

It takes practice and determination to let old beliefs fall to the wayside. As mentioned over and over, there is no right or wrong decisions - only awareness. Each choice causes a ripple effect. The problem lies in the lack of decision making while waiting for an exterior source to help. Fear can be crippling as it creates more fear until there is no movement. Yikes! In order to grow, find peace, experience joy, laugh, love, some kind of motion has to take place. Take in a deep breath and allow your shoulders to relax as you exhale. Feel better? Yeah me, too.

Inside all of us is a wise one that knows only Truth. Find time each day to pause and listen to the internal voice through meditation, reflection, daydreaming, staring off into the distant sunset and even during a long hot shower. Learn a variety of techniques to quiet the chattering monkey mind. Excuses can be found as to the why not's. What do you desired? How can you expand your experience? How can it get any better than this?

Recently I've made a significant decision. And it was easy. I trust my inner voice. Yes, it will involve spending money. Yes, it involves going more public with my services. And yes, I am feeling fear. I also know from the depths of my being this is the path in which I desire to journey. Listening to Self during quiet moments, I gracefully understand how many different experiences have lead to this moment - a manifestation. There is a stubborn, nay-saying three year-old girl sitting on my right shoulder that I've asked to be my friend. I'm listening to her fears and embracing them. I am nurturing fear with love. What better way can you think of to develop a healthy relationship? The more I love and get to understand the three year-old naysayer, the softer her tantrums and the complaints lessen. Somehow she will get my attention. I rather it come through love.

Power of Empowering

Feelin' a bit feisty, I let thoughts swirl around fears and employment as I washed the dishes this morning. In view is the floral garden I haven't tended to in two weeks. There's also a hiking trail two miles down the road I haven't stepped foot on in over three weeks. I've allowed working to consume my energy and time. As I stood at the kitchen sink looking at the wheelbarrow full of rotting vegetation in the middle of a pathway, a gentle voice quietly asked, “Where's your focus?”

I smiled. I knew. “Yep,” I said aloud, “I'm not setting my energy on the things that matter the most to me. Huh....” Excuses could have spewed from my mouth, if I allowed, but talk about counterproductive. We as a society worry too much about money, jobs, lack of 'something.' When, or why, did we move away from the rhythm of life – nature – being? What happened to the idea of living peacefully in the moment? Listen to friends, family and Self on a Sunday evening and most likely you'll hear the discord of “I hate Mondays, I don't want to go to work tomorrow, I can't wait for next weekend.” Anxiety builds and more fear is set forth along with annoyance, dissatisfaction and plenty of other unpleasant emotions. Why do we insist on suffering? Ha! Here's a thought, how about I go to work to recoup (rest) from life instead of resting because work is exhausting.

For as long as I can remember I have said, “Tell me I do good and I will do better. I want to hear the phrase again and again.” Honestly, I've only encountered a couple of managers/employers that functions in this manner. Instead most stood on their shaky pedestal tossing their self-fabricated power around like they were the keepers of the kingdom, holder of the keys, instilling fear in hopes to maintain the illusion of control. There's this false premise that in order to feel good about Self, a person needs to knock everyone else off the I-feel-confident-in-myself soapbox. Why? How does belittling a person make anyone believe they are more important and stand on a higher rung of the so-called ladder?

There's a joyful life just waiting to be embraced. Life is meant to feel good. It is our own personal interpretation of _______ (work, relationships, money, and etc.) that holds us in the position of powerlessness. Ouch. We mirror, attract, situations based on what we believe while following our intuition – perception. Motivate Self and Others with love, compassion, and empowering words. There is so much satisfaction in feeling the energy vibration rise when intent is focused on encouraging versus dismantling.

We create our own heaven and hell. The challenge to leaving behind fear is to go within and find the Hidden One – the Shadow – and learn from this aspect of Self. The Shadow has so much to teach. Do not resist this awareness. Seek the part of “I” pushed out of the way in hopes of never revealing. Ah, for only a fool would believe it possible. As a wise one shared with me using visuals tools I could then comprehend, he explained energy needs three three things in order for the current to flow – a positive, a negative and a ground. “It is YOU that has defined positive as good, negative as bad and grounding as the wire that keeps it functioning properly. There is no good. There is no bad. There is only awareness.”

Mantra of Possibilities

Spending time and energy working with my shadows, the parts of me that I've buried alive and attempted to keep hidden deep within the interior walls (the naysayer, victim, lack-luster, unworthy, unqualified, incapable and etc.), has provided me with insight and key elements of wisdom.

Becoming friends with my shadow is providing me freedom from the nagging and unjustified monkey mind. As quick as thoughts start down the spiral of despair and nastiness, changing them to beliefs with loving qualities has become easier. Each time another shadow makes an entrance I envision hugging myself and whispering in the ear of the shadow, "I forgive you. I love you." The six word phrase is repeated over and over until the emotions of anxiety, pain or drama settles and I feel more at peace. I know miracles are happening with each expression of love and forgiveness of Self with focus shifting to living peacefully.

Get to know and become friends with ALL of you - even the events you claim as a mistake. There are no mistakes, only awareness. Allow your emotions to guide your internal healing. Joyful and painful moments serve as a compass leading us to our true desires. Without conflict, we would not know peace. Go ahead, tell Self, "I won't be doing that again," when you remember a bad relationship, a less than enjoyable job, a regretted purchase five minutes after it was made. Realizing what you do not want to experience the phrase "How does it get better than this?" can easily serve as a new mantra. Opportunities will begin to open because while you were so busy believing how bad life sucked, it was impossible to see the possibilities. What are the infinite possibilities?

Shadow Work

A day late and much wiser for it. I’m dealing with my shadows. They are parts of me (memories) that I have blocked, are unaware of (from past lives) and have simply forgotten. The shadows are the unresolved issues within me - emotional triggers/reactions/behavioral patterns. And yes, you have them as well. That’s a good thing. It’s time to start acknowledging that side of Self.

Awareness is vital for it holds the keys to unlocking what is either out of reach or hidden from us. The more I’m exposed to the subject of shadows the more I’m realizing how unaware I was to them. I heard the descriptive title shadows for the first time last week and now it seems to be my new theme word. Let me clarify, I’ve heard the word used in the same context, but hadn’t felt its meaning and value as I do at this moment. It’s time to heal another aspect of me – the part that I dread and feared for all these years.

Emotions serve as a compass. When we are happy go lucky and joyful, we are in our vibrational flow and aligned with Self. When we begin to spiral downward with negative thoughts, we are no longer in the flow and life seems to suck big time. It hurts and the more we dwell on the pain and frustration, the more we fall downward like a slinky on a tall, steep staircase. Tumbling with an occasional thud, but the momentum seems to carry us down, down, down until we consciously say, “STOP!”

I’ve found the courage to see the shadow for what it is – a part of me. My shadows affect you and yours affects my life. Working individually on our shadows, yet united, we co-create the lives we truly attract. Let’s begin by appreciating the shadow’s willingness to come to the surface to be recognized. Get to know the shadow and make friends with it. Love this part of me. It serves as another gateway for love and light – the source of healing energy. The biggest realization that I’ve noticed is how I use distraction (television, radio, chores, busy work, and etc) to keep my mind unfocused on the issues at hand. I’m taking time each day, as often as I can, to allow silence to fill the environment. Without the distractions, I am not interfering with my own personal awareness and this provides me the opportunity to become familiar with the destructive patterns/behaviors so I can alter my beliefs.

I foresee this will be a topic I continue to discuss on this blog. The flowing is more or less the suggestions that I’ve noted for me and wish to share with you as it may help you with your own enlightenment:

By being thankful for what you have versus what you don’t have will help a person to get closer to aligning with Self.

Know you are loved.

You are never alone for your Higher Self is always with you and will never ever separate connection with you. We are surrounded by angelic guides gently offering guidance and with freewill we choose to either accept or deny the assistance. Spend time in nature. Talk to the trees, the rocks, the birds and the deer – pausing long enough to hear to their wisdom. Slow down and listen.

There is power in your thoughts and words.

Learn to silence the monkey-mind and turn off the distractions we use to drown out his chatting.

Focus on and see the goodness of Self – the Universe.

Value Self as a Being of Pure Love and Light.

Ask “What are the infinite possibilities?” from a point of positive belief (not lack).

Know that you are the creator of your own reality – Perception and Awareness are key.

Love and Forgive Self. Always be compassionate with Self.

A knowing comes from the Heart; a thought is the current belief in this moment.

“A belief is only a thought I continue to think. A belief is only my habit of thought; it’s only a practiced thought – a belief is only a thought that I think a lot.” –Abraham/Hicks (The Vortex - Where the Law of Attraction Assembles All Cooperative Relationships, written by Ester and Jerry Hicks)

Uncovering A Self-Imposed Truth

After taking care of business, a friend and I sat in her office talking about our boys; her three teens and my two adult sons. Conversation rolled from sports, interests, natural skills and shifting sixteen year old attitudes. A phrase she said brought out a self-imposed truth I'd suppressed deep within. She mentioned how one of her sons “has it figured out that the world is his oyster and everything is available to him. All he has to do is go for it.” She followed up with, “You know, like when we realized it.”

Without a hint of hesitation, I replied, “I've never really felt that way. For me it's always been a sense of survival.” Metaphorically speaking, I dropped to my knees. An awareness, a perception of life, a belief of my truth was in that moment brought out into the spotlight for me to view, bless and release.

“Time is only there to impede the soul of doing its job - to enjoy the things that surround us.” -Jeremiah Kochis

Several days later, I spent a few minutes with a dear friend chatting about something completely different – yet carrying the same emotions. With tender words of kindness he expressed how he believes I am being tested to find, speak, express my truth. Finding the value of saying “No” to things that don't resonate for my highest good. Sitting next to him on a park bench in the shade of the porch, I said, “I'm so tired of the struggle. I don't like this 'being tested' crap. I want to enjoy life without all the struggle.”

He responded in the big brother way he always does with me, “Turn it around. How are you looking at this? Turn it around and see the lesson. See the good in the experience. It's only awareness. You have to live from here,” he tapped is chest indicating the heart. “How can you change your perception?”

We are loved beyond our verbal comprehension of the meaning. Allow the love from within your heart to guide you. Trust Self. Bless each situation and use the experiences like a compass to direct the journey. We are guided to express and live our truth. How can you change your perception to that of knowing there is unlimited potential? What are the infinite possibilities?

A personal notation - sometimes shared insight helps to open the thoughts of others. Many blessing to you...

Childish Behavior

Without a plan or written list of things to do, the next three days will be what we adults label impulsive as I live in the moment. I was blessed with three consecutive days off in a row. After I did my woo-hoo dance in the office my first thought was, Yes! Thank you. And the following kinda went like this: I can go up to Marquette again. Or I could stay home and finally get my garden taken care of. Oh, camping sounds like fun. I could hang out in nature and do nothing all day. The 'I could's' became overwhelming. Another list started forming, I could make candles, draw, finish writing my novel, clean the closets, make jewelry.... I could... The sound of the needle scratching over the vinyl record filled my mind. Stop! What was I doing? I was becoming exhausted and I still had plenty of days to work before the mini-vacation.

What happened to the days when I was a child and flowed from one moment, one event, one activity to another? There was no itinerary, no plan of action, no list to scratch off the completed projects – it was just what it was. In a way I feel a bit lost as to what to do. Letting go of the I hafta's is a little trickier than I expected. There's this compulsive need to make a list, but refusing to do so is actually quite liberating. As a matter of fact, the normal routine is to have the rough draft of my Monday morning blog post completed by 8am and today the computer was turned on at 9:15.

When we were children, our thoughts were on the activities we were currently participating in not focused on what's next. Shifting from playing with my toys upstairs to romping around the neighborhood with the boys next door to riding bikes to the beach to going to another friend's house and eventually ending up back home in time for dinner. A simple suggestion turned into, “Okay, let's go.”

As I live in the moment for the next couple of days may my need to control every minute fall to the wayside and hopefully spillover into the following days when I go back to the office. Oh look, a humming bird feasting on the nectar of the flowering bush outside the window. Gotta go.

Written Signs

When a particular animal repetitively enters into our day-to-day activities, wonder become curiosity and soon we ask, "Oh, what are the deer trying to tell me?" Like a friend pokin' ya in the ribs to get your attention, the deer have a message. Time might be spent searching the meaning in books, on the internet and some will choose to go within for inner guidance. What about words?

Singular words stick out in a crowd of letters and vowels waiting for me to notice. There have been times when I swear they reach right off the page, grab my shirt collar firmly and say, "Hey, you! Yeah, you! Look at what I'm telling you!" For a period of time the word trust seemed predominate; other times it was love, forgiveness, joy, meditate, and the list continues for pages. Right now it is COMPASSION. I see the ten letter word in articles, quotes posted on social media sites, books, hear it spoken in the post office - everywhere. It's like being back in Jr. High and the English teacher's word of the week is compassion.

"There is a common perception that compassion is, if not actually an impediment, at least irrelevant to professional life. Personally, I would argue that not only is it relevant, but that when compassion is lacking, our activities are in danger of becoming destructive. This is because when we ignore the question of the impact our actions have on others' well-being, inevitably we end up hurting them." -Dalai Lama

The significance of seeing these signs is that it provides us an opportunity for personal growth (if one chooses). There's a sense of 'am I being honest about compassion towards Self and others?' The domino effect can move our internal dialog to ask, "What aspects do I wish to change?" "Is there another way?" "Am I open to exploring new possibilities?"

It is during these moments knowledge expands and the matrix of the Universe exposes a little more of what once seemed hidden. Awareness to options, altered beliefs accepted and again our wisdom evolves. Appreciation for the experiences encourages mindsets to change as the desire to be authentic becomes the focus. Not only do we see the world clearer, we're able to light the way for others who wish to empower the potential within themselves like a lighthouse on a foggy morning.

Character Building

How can someone else speak your truth? I’ve been observing this question for a considerable amount of time and am finding it quite mind-boggling. Seriously, how can someone else convey your truth?

I’d just turned on my television and the morning news host says something about a reporter “will be on right after the commercial break with the truth about” the scandal of so-and-so at ‘big corporation’. My first thoughts were, How can they speak truth for so-and-so? Did they even speak to the man? And then I observed a misinformed truth at work several days ago. An important question was brought up and two co-workers answered the questions for me. Fact: the two individuals were not in the office, nor did they have knowledge of what happened and yet their answers were accepted as my truth. Sad to say, it’s a common practice in most aspects of life. Just listen to a rumor.

“Imagine how much productivity would be accomplished if everyone felt appreciated and valued instead of spending time reconstructing their self-confidence.” –Cindy Kochis

We all say things about others. It’s what conversation usually is centered around and in most cases we believe what we are saying is accurate. A percentage of the people will focus on the hurtful and demeaning attributes of an individual while others only mention information that is positive and of their good qualities. We are building characters each time we speak of another person; as a matter of fact – ourSelf.

How often is a judgment of an actress or rock star based on what the press/media reports on the individual you have never met? Or the person who’s mug shot has been plastered all over the six o’clock news claiming to be a bad person. Consider this scene: a 50 year old woman hits the gas instead of the brake and accidently kills a child. What are some of the reactions you are going to hear on the streets and in the coffee houses? “They should throw the book at her.” “Woman drivers!” It’s not necessary for me to continue with the comments; they are already forming in your mind. You’ve judged the person without knowing their truth. You are speaking your opinion about her situation without knowing all the accurate information. You’ve just jumped on the rumor mill merry-go-round without taking time to find out that the woman is the mother of three kids, cares for her elder parents, and works full-time at a children’s trauma hospital. Was compassion for her situation even considered?

This is strictly an observation and message to bring awareness. What characters are you building when you speak your truth about someone else? Are you accurately reporting what you witnessed? Is your interpretation similar to the other involved?

It is what it is….

Leading the Way

Why do we waste so much time desperately searching for a purpose to our life versus experiencing life. What if it were as simple as to explore joy, happiness, contentment? For most, in order to appreciate what they term a 'blessings' conflict is endured. Can you think of a better way to define desires?

You wanted a job; you got a job. You wish your boss was better at managing the staff; you got another job where the boss is a better manager. You wish you had job where the boss was a better manager and you wanted to be paid more money; you got a different job with a better boss and paid more money. You wanted a job, a boss that’s a great manager, paid more money and now you want more vacation time… Can you see how most of us define our desires? This works with every aspect of life – homes, friendships, lovers, relationships, jobs, cars, vacations, etc.

The key element is not to “want” from the lack of not having, but believing it is possible to obtain. It is possible. There are no limits, except those that you believe.

I heard myself repeat the phrase, “It’s not a race,” to a dear friend of mine who is just becoming aware of their gifts. Right now the person is reading, researching and consuming information faster than I could eat a plate of chocolate chip cookies. It’s as though they feel they have to catch up to the others at the party. Funny thing is that was me years ago. A good friend of mine sat down with me and made the point over and over this is not a race, there is no finish line, take your time in evolving and observe as you become aware of/remember what you already know.

The knowledge is there within each of us. Slow down (especially if you feel life is going too fast, chaotic, out of control) and value the time spent alone. Take time to listen to your inner wisdom. It’s there, I promise you. When you connect to the internal wise one you find no reason to seek your answers outside of Self. I suppose for some it can happen in a matter of a short period of time, and others it could take years. With a desire to open up to your own awareness, you can accomplish anything. Recently, while in meditation, I receive the message "Life is about joy, experiencing contentment, and when you (I) do, the feeling from within will be indescribable. Relax and bless all situations. They are your internal compass."

Soaking in the Words

I was driving down a county road when the cluster of words came to me begging to be put to paper. It doesn’t matter who the phrase is intended for or how they come across the poem. It always comes into light in perfect time.

Self -love, -worth, -appreciation, -gratification may not come easy some days. Years back I found in a book or on the internet to verbalize the statement “I love you” in the mirror. At first I felt a tad bit awkward. Okay, downright silly. I wondered how this was going to help me feel better about the person looking back at me. In a short amount of time it became easier and less (for a lack of a better word) embarrassing. A new sense of pride, appreciation, value percolated and the statement developed strength. There is power in our words, especially the unspoken.

When the world seems less than ideal, I’ve learned it is important to care for the sensitive person inside. Being empathetic is a blessing and at moments not so much. On one hand it makes forgiveness easier because I understand – I feel what the other person is feeling. With this gift of sensitive energy and strong intuition, it took me a long time to realize how easy it is to absorb the ‘not-so-nice information’ internally. Mood swings like a pendulum slamming to the left and then the right without resistance.

“Claiming “I’m fine” with tears flowing internally is a difficult way of life.” –Cindy Kochis

Years ago, I became aware of how other people’s ‘stuff’ affected me. It became very important for me to explore ways to resist the temptation to and prevent myself from soaking up their vibrational energy and take claim to it involuntarily. The ‘ick’ clouds my mood and provides the monkey mind with destructive ammunition. Again, there is great power in unspoken words. The ongoing practice to shield the aura is vital. A few of the techniques I find work the best for me is meditation, journaling, affirmations and an evolving believe in Self.

Yesterday was one of those ouch days at work. My aura was wide open like a barn door and a dry sponge in the heart of it eager for anything. I soaked up the aggression, the insecurity and whatever else was ready to attach to my being. I felt as though I’d been beaten with the metaphorical 2x4 and then toss out into the highway in front of a Mack truck. Splat. It was a long ride home once I completed my shift. After I tossed another tissue into the trash, rolled over, snuggled deep in the safety of my quilts, I recalled what I wrote over a week ago:

“I extend to you

The security of a mother’s hug

The warmth of a lover’s embrace

The joy of child’s curiosity

The peace of calm water

The harmony in a celebrated moment

This is the gift of love I share with you…”

Early Morning Energy

More time was spent tossing and turning last night than the act of sleeping. Odd dreams of my young sons and I in a house that wasn't ours, a snippet of working in a job I've never held, and any of the other bazaar glimpses I remember involved cleaning. In the house, that wan't ours but was, I washed dishes in a household kitchen with two sinks and getting the trash ready to be taken out. At the place of work, I had to run across the street to the bakery for more paper towels because our office ran out and no one filled out a requisition form. Funny thing was while I was being told by the employees of the bakery that they too were out of paper towels, the owner gave me some outdated sherbet in plastic sleeves instead of the usual bucket. It did look yummy.

At 4:11 a.m. I effortlessly woke up wondering, "what's with all the cleaning?" As quick as the thought entered, it was gone and my internal conversation started to focus on meditation. Yeah, weird I know. I was awake and unable to slip back in to sleep. I suppose it could have been simply that I didn't want to do any more cleaning.

The thoughts filling my less than groggy mind were not on the why's to meditate, but on the techniques and sacred space journeying. Did you know that zoning out or daydreaming is a form of meditation? How about sitting and watching the waves lap up the shoreline? It's not just about sitting Indian style with palms face up balancing on your knees with thumps and index fingers lightly pressed together to create a circle. It's actually less complicated (and you cannot do it wrong). It is about allowing (giving opportunity) the spirit within to communicate freely with the mind and body on all dimensions. We receive the best information and guidance from our internal compass for the soul's only intent is for the highest good.

As I tossed one more time this time facing the curtain dancing in the wind, I started thinking of the energy flow that occurs during the Heart Source Healing Guided Meditation I wrote. It was then I realized we harmonize, balance and cleanse the chakras, but what about the other energy ports in our physical bodies. The 'oh yeah' and 'ah-ha' phrases settled and I wondered why I hadn't thought of this earlier? They deserve just as much attention as the chakras.

Hands are well known portals for energy flow. The loving touch of a mother or loved one can bring comfort and peace of mind. The healing touch of someone who cares during a crisis instills support. The reminder of purity when a young child touches your hand and says, "I love you."

Our bodies consist of a network of energy points (hands, feet, hips, elbows, shoulders, etcetera). And what some may not understand is these portals are connected to a matrix of all energies. For example: How do you feel around one person versus another? If your were standing next to person A in a group of their friends, how would their energy differ than when alone? Change it around again and while standing next to person A surrounded by person B's aggressive peers, how does the network of energy feel?

Energy is information. Our intuition deciphers the energy and provides us with information internally though our sensory system. The "good feeling" you have about a person, the "fear" of the location. It's how we make choices.

So, at four o'clock this morning what were you thinking about? I remembered to add a technique to assist listeners of Heart Source Healing Guided Meditation to harmonize, balance and cleanse all their energy ports.

I'm Attracting That?

The repetitive sounds of the waves and the breeze fill my ears with the sweet harmony of bliss. Me and Lake Michigan and wet sand between my toes. Only a few people have claimed their piece of paradise as I find mine. The fold-up chair is placed in a perfect spot so the occasional wave can tickle my feet. Pad of paper and pen ready to capture whimsical thoughts and dreams as odd looking beach bugs scurried on the hot sand running to and fro and rarely in a straight line. These were the thoughts I had yesterday when I began to journal. Quickly they changed as awareness of the law of attraction was making its point.

Here's insight to yesterday's journal entry and a wonderful example of how our vibrations affect what we are manifesting. On the way out here, I was made aware... yes, I noticed it. If law of attraction is listening – paying attention – boy, am I in trouble. At the grocery store, the cashier asked where I was working and if I liked it. My response was less than enthused as I responded, “I'm grateful for the paycheck.” At the post office, the gal behind the counter weighing my box to be shipped mentions she hadn't seen me in a long time and asked where I was working and how I like it. This time I feel a touch of resentment build internally as I told her, “I'm going to the beach for the first time all summer.” The discussion went from me feeling good about my day off to not so good vibrations when I mentioned that I work most weekends and usually work six days a week with several short shifts so I barely hit 40 hours. Wow, at this point my day of relaxation is not feeling so relaxing.

My journal entry then continues: This is not what I want... so how do I manifest things I enjoy, feel valued and respected, receive a fair paycheck for my services, and without all the office drama-luster. My goal is for the highest good for all with harm to none ~ my focus is to assist others. I am a writer with many stories to tell... stories to warm the heart, inspire people to be authentic and encourage personal growth.

“Women are repeatedly accused of taking things personally. I cannot see any other honest way of taking them.” -Marya Mannes

As I sit at my computer this morning allowing my fingers to tap dance on the keyboard I truly see how awareness brings change in various forms. A common thing we as a society whine about is our jobs. I most certainly am not discrediting my employers as I am very grateful I am one of their employees. We have fun and plenty of 'good stuff' is accomplished. The ultimate point being made is to pay attention to how your energy feels when speaking on any subject.

Observing the rise and fall of our vibration can make a difference in our perception. The key element to manifesting is the focus of energy we feel in any given moment. Yesterday, I allowed my emotions to be altered by the lack I was feeling. Today, as I get ready for work, I am feeling gratitude. Joy that I have a job close to home, every time I pick up the phone I have the opportunity to make a new friend and assist them to the best of my abilities, and for the steady paycheck.

Going back to my afternoon at the beach, I made a list of questions to create an internal dialog for change, bring forth emotions and view my desires on paper. I closed the journal after I wrote '...and do what? Listen to the music of the waves and wind.'

Today as you go about your business, note the emotions you feel when speaking – and listening. Are you aware of your manifestations?

Exposing the Internal Chatter

Waking up from an odd dream this morning, I picked up my journal to help sort out the bits and pieces I remember - and the parts I’d rather forget. It was odd. Really strange. As the words were written, the internal dialog morphed into reasons why it's a good idea to journal. It didn’t take me long to realize the subject of today’s blog.

Sitting with a pad of paper and a pen, allow the internal conversation to flow - Self-Love 101. For some it can be considered Problem Solving 101. Who better to answer your questions and advise you on your quest? Who knows you better? Here’s a more important question, “Who has your best interest at heart?”

Journaling is a great way to get thoughts out of our heads and to better understand our emotions. Some pretty amazing things can be discovered this way. Unresolved resentments all the way to hidden joys are given the opportunity to flow from deep within the subconscious and into awareness. During the writing process is not the time to overanalyze. Let the words be as they appear. Once on paper you can decide to review the creation or get rid of it. Embrace or release - author’s choice.

"Remember, there is a creative energy that wants to express itself through you"; "Don't judge the work or yourself. You can sort it out later"; "Let God work through you." -Julia Cameron (The Artist Way, published 1992, 2002, page XV)

The process of the internal dialog can have significant healing properties. Explain and describe your emotions (good and bad, no holding back) the way you feel in that very moment. Once exposed, you can determine if you wish to continue this state of mind or if you want to make a change. Awareness provides us the key elements and opportunity to learn more about me, myself and I. We have multiple personalities that expect to be heard. We embody the Worker, the Slacker, the Lover, the Loner, the Adult, the Child, the Creator, the Destroyer, the Overwhelmed, the Calmness, the Aggressor, the Peace-Maker and there's more within. Each one has a voice and craves attention.

Writing out desires assists in clarifying the I want’s and can begin to pave a trail for the journey, or at least machete chop the jungle growth out of the way. Used as a tool, it can help plot out the baby steps to reach the intended goal. Some people use this technique as a way to work out a five year plan.

For me it was a tool to clear my head and, by chance, accomplish today’s post. After I finish this article, I believe I shall work on that Gratitude List I keep in my journal.

Keep writing, my friends.

Trusting the Chosen Path

Returning to the truck, water squished between my toes inside the hiking boots that once, years ago, bore a waterproof tag. The torn and worn beyond comfortable jeans are soaked from the rain jacket down. Rain water dripped from my bangs into my eyes. I was literally soaked from the top of my head to the soles of my feet and haven’t felt that refreshed in a long time.

Yesterday, after waking up from my second nap of the day, my body begged for movement. Working my backyard garden in the rain is a common practice, but not what I was craving. I wanted longer strides to my steps. A raising of the heart rate. A hike on one of the nearby Nature Preserve trails. The gentle summer sprinkle turned to rain and as the first few steps were firmly placed on the path it began to pour.

The 1.3 mile trail is marked by a well-traveled path. Signs are not necessary here. The aroma of wet cedar, birch trees, grasses, wild flowers and countless other plant life exhilarated my sense of smell. The entrance is in a thick cluster of cedar trees leading the adventurer to an area where, this time of the year, the thick brush is almost taller than the five feet five inches I claim. The corridor weaves to the left, then the right and at points I am unable to see more than a few feet ahead of me. This was when the phrase a friend offered to me to ponder returned from memory. He said, “Trust in the trust of trusting.”

Read the line again. “Trust in the trust of trusting.” The meaning, for me, is profound when repeated aloud and becomes even more so each time I repeat it internally. It’s easy to say we trust something, however to believe and feel the unconditional faith is forever evolving. To relax and be free of the need to control a situation or circumstance. The thought, “If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans,” just now crossed my mind.

Approaching another tight corner I trusted the path would lead me safely to the clearing I know is ahead. Something seemed different. A sense of unfamiliarity. I've walked this trail countless times, in all sorts of weather conditions; under blue skies, trees swayin’ in the harsh fall winds, snow up past my knees. For a new-comer walking this particular part of the path where the tree branches hang low and the bush full of red berries have overgrown the space may pose intimidation and the sense of the claustrophobia. A choice will be made to either trust the path is safe or be convinced by internal forces to turn back towards the vehicle with the intent to try a different day.

The deeper into the swampland I got the more I understood how my emotions accurately measure the level of trust. I know I will be okay. I know that everything has its season and it always works out. But this refers to the future, what about right now? How do I feel about work, my relationships, my financial situation? At what level am I trusting that in this moment I am being taken care of by the Universe? Am trying to control it? Am I, as the saying goes, giving it to the angels and God to handle? Or am I holding myself back from the joy I wish to experience? What am I allowing life to be?

Pausing on one of the sturdy wooden bridges, I watched the creek flow effortlessly towards the lake. The temptation to release tears of frustration was there, yet something lit up inside my heart and I knew instantly everything is bliss. Life is good. A little further down the trail, as I wiped the rain off my face again, I giggled at the thought, I trust the waterproof mascara will hold up under the rain.